Yet Another

Another great song that you nice readers should check out is: Two Ghosts by Boy Eats Drum Machine on the album Two Ghosts

Seriously, worth a listen. Classic upbeat music that talks about depressing things! YAY haha

No time.

Recently I've posted some stuff on FB that is mostly links to music that I think people should hear.

As I still don't have lots of time, I'm going to try an post more often with just good music.

The latest is Cartel's Song Wasted.

Nocturne in B Major

Several years ago, I was a reprobate, screwing around, and going to college (the first time) and not putting any effort into my future.

To this day, it has been my largest regret by far. It has sent me down a path I never imagined, unconcerned with the outcome. Largely, I am no better for it. I know the value of an education, but still haven't any idea where to go, or what to do with my life. The people I've met along the way have mostly wandered out of my life, with me letting them do so. What a poor shepherd I would make.

I'm not trying to elicit sympathy, nor evoke sadness, but simply to state that the last several years have not worked in my favor. I've sacrificed my youth, and for what? College expenses that were already paid for? I remember that during basic training, on the second week, they issued all trainees the first round of inoculations and they said that if you had an adverse reaction to the drug, you would be removed from the Air Force, no harm, no foul. It happens to less than .01% of trainees. I remarked that if I had an adverse reaction, I would gladly accept getting out of the Air Force, in fact, if they had given me the choice, I would have bowed out then. It wasn't a matter of "Do I have the constitution for this challenge?" It was more a matter of, I've learned my lesson, and I'm ready to be responsible. Alas, it was too late. I think this may have played a large role in why I never had any real USAF spirit. I still believed in what we were doing, but I never got that real sense of pride from my work, or my time in the Air Force.

Now, I'm at the point where I know enough to stick with college, because no matter what I choose, a degree will help me to accomplish it, however, I'm no closer to knowing what I'm supposed to do. Easily enough, I day dream of a perfect life with the fast cars, and big house and beautiful wife, but when it comes to the perfect job, it doesn't really show up clearly. I want to travel, I want to see the world, I want to be part of a team that goes to Mars, something, anything that lets me explore this world. The problem is that nobody will hire a young person such as myself to do these things. I'm not trained, not skilled, and not worthy of these illustrious positions. I know this,and I'm forced to accept this. But this makes a life, my life, (read me) unhappy. A life lived unhappily is a life lived unsatisfied, is a life not worth living.

So how do I change this life I lead? How do I break out of this cycle? I don't. I press on, venting to a computer screen and thus only a few people who have chosen to click the link, and read the page. Perhaps I should look in to a year abroad. Or a life abroad. Enjoy your weekend folks.

Tonight's musical selection comes after much deliberation of classical music, primarily listed to prior the blog being written. I hope you enjoy this Krebs, Fantasie in F minor. It's a beautiful reprise of the original, and compiled by Stephen Malinowski. Enjoy.

Purified and Advanced

This week, has been tough, and will continue to be tough all through it. Since I don't have a lot of time today, I think I'll just do bulleted list.

- Three big tests this week. Trig, and Calc on the same day, and a C++ Programming mid-term.

- Lost the girl I was dating to her ex-boyfriend. I'm conflicted about how I feel about it. I'm happy for her, but pissed because I know I'm the better guy, and to see him win her, pisses me off. "It's her loss Colin" Well it sure doesn't feel that way.

- Applying for a second job at Sam's Club. I go in for my second interview today. It seems like I'm the right guy for at least the weekend days of that job. Even if I don't get it, I'm ok with that.

- I need to find some new friends. Not necessarily drop the old friends, but because I have so few right now, if there's ever a problem with any of them, it's a much bigger deal in my life than it should be.

Finally, the lyrics and song of the week:

"...But this shit storm is never ending, and the atmosphereic pressure is calling for rain. This is what I've got going on, this is where I belong."
Where I Belong by Motion City Soundtrack on Even if it Kills Me.

Busy. Just Busy

Let me start of with: Read the title. Then, read the title again. Right now, I'm quickly tapping out this blog between students I tutor, and with any luck, I will have enough time to finish.

School is the main thing that's keeping me so busy. While things are moving at a decent pace in all my classes, the material continues to get more complex. Mix that in with mid-term exams, and next week is going to kill me. It's just so much work, between all the classes and working, that I often find myself mentally exhausted by 7pm. I can't be exhausted then, it doesn't do me any good. I need those next four hours to knock out homework. I'm sure it doesn't help that I have two math classes and tutor math for five hours on wednesdays. Hopefully, next semester, I'll be able to help students out in a variety of sections, and that way it will all stay mildly refreshing.

The girl I've been hanging out with takes up the remaining time that I have. I'm fortunate that I can spend time studying with her as not only does she value studying in the same way I do, but she's also in my calculus course. This really helps out because once we both get mentally exhausted, we can still enjoy each other's company while not talking about school or doing schoolwork.

I'm supposed to get internet at my new place which I moved in to a couple weeks ago this friday, so with any luck I'll at least have an increased oppertunity to knock out a blog with a spare moment.

How are you guys/gals? Hopefully life is keeping you busy, but that you're having fun doing it.

Cheers.

The More I See, the Less I Know.

Time is endless, but it's still changing. That said here's some new developments in the world of Colin.

Calculus test, did poorly on (a 79 AFTER the curve...)
Trig - I probably shouldn't be doing so well in that class for how little I study in comparison. :(

In my personal life, I just got a new place, so I'll be moving in there soon. I'm both excited and nervous to be living on my own again. I realize, that I shouldn't be nervous, but there's a lot of responsibility in your own place and because everybody seems to know my last name in this town, it's just one more thing that I have to worry about; one more thing I have to keep the high quality of the name going.

I've also applied to work at Sam's Club on the weekends at the service desk this last weekend, so with any luck I'll hear from them soon. Extra cash is always a good thing, even if it's at the expense of my personal life for now. "The all important dollar" supposedly. Truth be told, I just want to get my car paid off and have enough left over for school and such.

That's about all that's new in the life of Colin.

Other things of note:

Thanks to Mellisa over at Adventures in the Sunshine State  as she compelled me to actually start linking instead of just recommending songs. So from now on, when I mention a song, unless I can't find it quickly you'll have an embedded/click-able access to the songs I'm talking about.

Compared to CoreyInKorea  though, I still have a lot to catch up on. He's got everything on his blog including photo albums and consistently proper HTML form. Yeah, I'm partially jealous.

Regardless, here's my musical suggestion for this go-round:
New Shoes  by Paolo Nutini on his album, These Streets.

Apartments Unfurnished

Week 5 of the semester is complete. What's scary is that it means from here on out the classes should level out in pace of new information, so that's pleasing, because these first few weeks in my math classes have been a rough and sharp review of all subjects prior, which is hard to do because it's so much to cover.

Speaking of classes and such:
I did well on that Trigonometry test, (98).
I took my first Calculus test, and although I haven't seen the result, it's not good. I know it's not good.
Programming class is going well. I understand 99% of what happens in that class.
My intro to computer systems class, we are finally transitioning into powerpoint, so hopefully that will be more exciting now. Who knows.

Personal life time!

I'm still getting attacked by the parental units for who I hang out with. I know what I'm doing here. I know enough to be guarded at the right times, and when to just unwind. I don't appreciate the constant berating. So, I'm looking into finding my own place. I'm already looking and making calls. There are a LOT of crappy places but so far a couple have stood out, so we'll see.

Finding new friends is still a challenge, but I knew that it would be, and frankly, I don't really have a lot of time to keep friends with my current schedule.

This last weekend, I went to a house party, and I think I made a good impression on most of the folks who were there. I had a good time and just like any good party, there were a couple of girls who went stumbling off, escorted home by their sober boyfriends/friends. There was a fight, there was a girl who cried, and there were a few games of beer pong. I'm still bad at that game. haha.

The following night, I spent some quality time with a girl and ended up staying at her place. I didn't really mean to, but I'm not ashamed of it. I really do like that we fit together naturally when sleeping. That to me is a big plus. If it's forced, it's less appealing.

I know, not nearly as drama filled as some of my previous posts, but I'm thoroughly OK with that. 

This week's blog is brought to you by The Kinks, Love It All on their album, Konk.

Seven Satisfied Customers.

One more week...just gone. I need a weekend that is twice as long as this one because I feel like I don't have time to do anything that is "relaxing". Granted, I did just watch the movie "Black Hawk Down" but honestly, that was the first thing I did to unwind this weekend. It's as though I just can't catch my breath academically. Right now? I should be studying Calculus.

Speaking of academics, here's the latest:
Computer Science (Programming): Getting better at creating programs, in fact despite the fact that I walked in late last Monday, I managed to tackle the hardest classwork problem virtually solo. It also turned out to be the most work and longest by a long shot. I still rocked it though. I made it look as though it was boring for me. I wish all my classes came as naturally to me.

Computer Information Systems: This gen-ed class, is actually a bit of work, because I feel like it's a LOT of busy work thus far, and on top of my other three classes, the challenge is just to complete the work.

Trigonometry: We had our test on Thursday, and while I feel more confidant about it now, at the time I was not enthused to take it. I'm sure I'll get the results back this week. Crossing my fingers.

Calculus: Dear Lord this class is hard. Things the teacher says "should be easy" are not, and the homework was a bear to tackle this last week. If I wasn't siphoning help from my father, I know I would have fallen on my face long ago. What's worse is that I created a study group AND gotten a math tutor, and it's still viciously hard. FML. I'm supposed to be able to recognize trig identities that I haven't learned yet in order to simplify parametric equations.

As for my personal life, it's frustrating to say in the least. I supposed context is necessary as per usual though eh?

I still haven't made many friends. I think that it's definitely got it's pros and cons, but the people that I would hang out with, aren't terribly social people. I like hanging out with social people so that I can meet a ton of different people. Yes, I'm still meeting people on a daily basis, but not in any sort of way to make friends with them.

As for romantic interests, that's all sorts of screwed up. I won't even entertain much to say that I think it might be in my interest to branch out and find a girl that's right for me, and not find a girl who I'm right for. I might have to give up on the idea of finding a mutually beneficial girl. It just isn't in the cards for me.

Furthermore, my nice guy attitude that I've attempted to adopt has failed me. I'm genuinely a good person, but it hasn't worked for me, as in, it hasn't actually gotten me anything that I want. At least when I was an asshole in the past, I could get what I wanted by being manipulative towards others. Ladies, you are the reason that aassholes continuously re-emerge in generation after generation. You date the asshole, younger kids see that being an asshole works, they turn into assholes themselves. Nice guys? Yeah, we're fucked from the get-go. You say you want to date us, but at night, our beds remain absent of you. My solution? Time for another change. Time for the year(s) of Colin to reign.

I recently realized that I put my brain to good use when it's just idling. I subconsciously plan. The nice part about this is that I can attack most new things with a real sense of logic and it works out. Except of course for anything involving relationships/ anything that has a variable form.

I recently was told that I MUST watch the film "The Notebook". Overall, I'll give it a 7 out of 10. Detracting elements include a plot that I could see through in less than 2 minutes, thinly veiled elements of surprise, and lastly, a poorly concluded ending. I feel that given the generalize plot of the ending, a different director could have summed it up in a more finite sense. Still though, it did earn solid marks for great cinema photography and a story that feels like we could relate our exaggerated lives to.

This week's music is from the talented artist Travis McCoy ft. Bruno Mars entitled "Billionaire" on Lazarus.

It kicks like a sleep switch.

Yet another week has slipped by. Where does the time go? I'm acutely aware of the time when I'm in class, but as soon as class ends, time slips through my fingers. I think I'll try to remedy this with a planner and then maybe I can figure out how to grab hold properly.

With the four day school week, the academic news is short, but far from sweet:

Calculus quiz: Probably scored a 50% on it because it was only a two question quiz and I didn't have enough time (it was only 10 minute long without calculators quiz) to finish my second problem completely. I have the right solution written down, but it's all in graphic form, not algebraic form.

Trigonometry: I'm getting disgusted with this class. I do not appreciate how Professor XXXXX pauses and virtually refuses to teach. Furthermore, when he does his brief impression of teaching, it's taught at the level of the brightest guy in the classroom, which obviously enough, I'm not. It's not challenging, it's impossible to follow what he's talking about. I've asked several students if they understood the math behind the problems, and the consensus is a firm no.

In other news:
Went to the Hookah Bar, and frankly, it was a big let down.  From there, we (me, and the two girls I told you about in the previous blog) took one of the girls back to her car, and she went home. The second girl and I stayed and talked in the car for quite some time. *Switching to PG-13 Mode* Things progressed further than I had hoped but we didn't actually kiss lips to lips. See, there's a large problem, she's not exactly single. That, which I'll address shortly, coupled with the fact that she labeled kissing on the lips as some sort of taking what we were doing as something serious. Since we didn't, she didn't take it as something real/serious. That's fine.

We stayed up and out in my car until 430am. Exhausted from the lack of sleep, I go to take her home, and the car doesn't start. FML. As if there was any sign that what we had been doing was a bad idea, this was it. I ignored that fact, and after some light coaxing, we got the second girl out to jump the car.

The following night (Saturday night), the girl whom I had fooled around with, came over to work on some online coursework because her computer is shot temporarily. After she finishes the work, we get to talking again, and again things progress further than I had anticipated. *DETAILS FILTERED BY PG-13* The point is, she kissed me on the lips. We kissed. So, in my mind, this is a great thing, she's now considering this to be something real/serious. She stays overnight, and the repercussions, which I will also address later turned out to be drastic. In the morning, after a night of cuddling and such, she and I have yet ANOTHER talk, and she tells me she doesn't think that this should be something real or serious. I hate that. I hate everything about that. So now, things are up in the air, and shit has hit the fan with the other girl two because she told her about us, and damn, she's not supportive of cheating (who knew /sarcasm).

Ok, so two things I said I'd address:
1. I'm a HUGE jerk. Instead of respecting a long distance relationship in trouble, I completely disregard it and fool around with the girl. I get it. I'm not perfect, but somehow in my mind it's less severe because what happened between the girl and I was a mutual desired experience.

2. The repercussions. Since I'm staying with the folks till I have enough money to move out, I have to follow their rules. One of their BIG rules is to not have a girl sleep over/ don't get laid in the house. Welp, we know that she did spend the night, and now I'm on the verge of being thrown out. Really? Great. I've managed to go only 4 months this time before being threatened to be booted. Mix that with the drama of the non-cheating-supportive friend, and my world is thrust into a bad episode of "The Real World" from MTV.  *Note If I do get thrown out, obviously my next blog will be delayed. More on that in the next blog. :X

I do recognize that I brought all this on myself, and frankly, I'm not even looking for empathy or pity. I'm looking for some God Forsaken clarity.

Here's some points of clarity that I have garnered:
a. Don't let anybody change who you are.
b. I don't like who I am when I'm with this girl. I break point a just by being interested in her romantically.
c. Disappointing my family has never made me feel so childish, or foolish as I felt today.

With all that I've written here, I hope that maybe I can provide insight, even if it's only for me.

In completely unrelated news, I went to go watch the LCCC girls soccer team play against Casper. We won, 2-0. Does this mean I'm gaining school spirit? Maybe. Does this mean that I got a sun burn on half of my face? Most assuredly.

Tonight's blog was written with numerous songs in the background, but I recommend "Every Man Has a Molly" by Say Anything on "...Is A Real Boy"

I am the Rain King!

Hey there folks...guess it's about that time to write another blog as yet another week has simply blown by.  Often times I have to go back and check out the previous week's blog to figure out what day things started and stopped on. This week is no different...and now I'm caught up!

Ok, so this week has been pretty exciting but only because I have more students to tutor, I've scheduled myself a tutor for calculus because my confidence isn't exactly supreme that I'll pass that class. Furthermore, not only do I want to pass that class, but I want to get an A in it. I don't want to have to settle for anything less than mastering the given topics. There simply isn't any reason to try my hardest for this "college" thing. ha!

The last few days have been the pinnacle of the week though, and I suppose I'll start with The Tastes of Denver. This is a festival where a lot of restaurateurs get together and have sample sizes and meal size portions on hand to sell for tickets. It's a pretty standard token society so that there is always a chance that they will make more money than what you give them simply because of the token conversion. The point though, is that the food was for the most part delicious. I had a list on my phone of everything that I ate, but somehow between then and now, I've managed to delete it. I remember that we had perogies, grilled mac and cheese, shrimp tacos, chicken wrapped in bacon (DELICIOUS!) fried alligator, lamb meatballs, and much more. On the drive home I was in full blown nap mode but by the time I got home, I was on my second wind.

The second wind turned out to really work the better, instead of just staying up and playing mindless computer games, I went out with this girl from my calc class and a few of her friends who really turned out to be more good people. My initial expectations were low, but clearly I approached the evening with a misinformed opinion. The night was relatively creative to most of my other nights out. We started out at a gas station so that we could carpool and then promptly drove to a Taco Johns. For those of you who don't know what a Taco Johns is, it's like a Taco Bell, but better in my opinion. Now, we started this night off already at 1015 or so, that means that the taco bell lobby is closed, but apparently that's totally fine because we straight up walk into the back of the TJ's prep area. It was just a foreign experience to me because I've never worked in the food industry. From there we drove to pick up another girl and then off to the hookah bar.

The hookah bar was much more packed than I thought it would be for being Cheyenne. Although, this IS Cheyenne, so maybe that's why the bar is full. We get a clutch corner spot, and sit back, and enjoy the evening. More girl friends join the group. I don't want to say that I looked like a pimp, but it didn't hurt being surrounded by several attractive girls. I won't get into the details of the night, but I would most definitely call it a successful evening regarding making new friends.

The following evening -Sunday night- I went out again with three of the girls from the night before to a Habatchi grill, called East Moon in Ft. Collins. I tried more sushi than I had before, and to my delight, I loved it. My previous experiences with sushi was not pleasant, so it was refreshing to enjoy the flavors of well constructed sushi.  The actual Habatchi portion of the meal however, barely qualified as mediocre. I simply could have eaten the sushi and been on my merry way, satisfied.

After returning to Cheyenne, I had a long chat with one of the new friends and it turns out we have tons in common. She's pretty cool, but first impressions have misleading in the past. We'll see.

I hope your week goes well my friends, and with any luck you enjoyed your Monday off for Labor Day.

This blog was written with Piano Bar 1 by The Seatbelts originally composed for the Cowboy Bebop Series.

Certified Fiber Sourcing

First week of school. Wow, it sure flew by. I suppose that's a good thing though, so long as I'm absorbing all the information and truly learning the coursework. As mentioned before, I'm taking 15 credit hours, and surprisingly it doesn't really feel like it just yet. I'm sure it will here within a couple weeks. I will say this though, I'm tired of math. lol I've just let myself get exhausted studying a couple of specific questions, and I know now, that I won't do that again.

Tutoring is going well thus far, I have six people that I tutor twice a week, so it's not too busy...yet. I'm told that after the first test in the lower maths (what I primarily tutor), my schedule will fill up completely. I want that, and I don't want that at the same time. I like not having any real homework, because I'm able to study while getting paid for it, but I also like how much faster the time seems to go when I'm actively tutoring as well.

I'm anxious to see how Calc shapes up as well simply because the teacher, Dr. Chakhad is pretty awesome, and very laid back when he's not teaching, but during the short 50 minute class, he's so frantic and moves quickly because it's just so short. Honestly, the last few classes feels like I sit down, start writing for 50 minutes just to copy down what he's writing, and then get up and go to lunch. Again, this is where I'm worried about my retention of the material. I'm also in the middle of trying to get a study group started with a few folks from class, so that I can learn from them as well as hopefully provide some insight on what they don't understand.

In other news, I'm still single, but at this point, I simply don't have the energy to chase a girl after school and tutoring. I'm just mentally exhausted. I take flak from my father about coming home and not studying. I apparently can't stress to him enough that I've studied while at school and that when I come home, I'm not looking for anything mentally straining. I'm hoping that as the semester wears on, my mental stamina will rise, and I will be able to study virtually continuously. I recognize how lame that sounds, but I'm here to learn above all else. I want to earn my degree, and I want to be on with the next phase of my life. That being said, I'll enjoy the current experience as much as it can be enjoyed.

I've been working on an exercise/workout session where you're supposed to be able to do 100 pushups in six weeks. Me? I'm not there yet. I'm on week 4 and exhausted. on my last set tonight, I  fell 15 short of where I was supposed to be. I waited 30 seconds, and then pumped them out. I feel like maybe I'll wait a couple of days, and then re-do today's workout. I really want to be able to accomplish this, if for nothing else, than to just be in better physical shape.

That's all I've got for now, so go forth and enjoy you week my friends.

Tonight's blog was (not) sponsored by This is my City covered by Timothy Victor.

Stickshifts and Safetybelts

"Whatever America hopes to bring to pass in the world must first come to pass in the heart of America." Dwight D. Eisenhower.

No I don't plan on making my blog political let alone make this post politically charged. It's just not me. That said, the quote seems to ring true all the same.

I've been terrible at updating this blog again. I blame it on my fascination with a series on Netflix. Scratch that, two series on Netflix. One was The Riches that starred Eddie Izzard and Minnie Driver, and the other, which I'm still into is called Skins. It's a British drama sitcom. If you like semi-perverse and moderately sexually charged coming of age stories, then this is your program haha.

I think I'll cover the last few days as briefly as possible.

Went to a clam bake with Dad and Janet. Addictive clams, terrible lobster.

Went to church and Texas Roadhouse today as part of Janet's birthday. Happy Birthday Janet. :D

Alysha Salt, a friend who was in my grade, was remembered this weekend for the 23rd, in which six years ago, she was in a terrible traffic accident that took her life. Miss you buddy.

I went to training and orientation for the tutor job I have.

School and tutoring begin tomorrow, the 23rd. Here goes nothing.

Class schedule consists of 15 credits; Calculus I, Computer Information Systems (basic computer literacy lol), Intro to computer science (it's a c++ programing course), and Trigonometry. Should be a busy semester.

I would like to see more pictures of my nephew. We'll see if the dad feels so inclined to post em.

 I think that's all I got for now. I'll try to update about my first day and such. I don't think I actually have any students to tutor until Tuesday.

This blog tonight is brought to you by "Sleeping In" by the Postal Service on their album Give up.

Lift me up higher now!

Wow so much has happened since my last blog post. Wait, not really. But there definitely is enough to report on, so here I go.

Kelly's garage project? A large pain of sorts. No matter, we (my father, a friend of his named Bruce, and me) worked on that garage for about a day and a half. We were just trying to install an automatic garage opener. In order to do this though, we have to raise the studs. Why? Because they weren't set at the normal height to begin with. The garage was small to begin with, but to lower the studs, doesn't make any sense at all. So, we punched out the ceiling, and raised the studs which were holding the garage tracks. That only took WAY too long. Then we have to saw the bottom part of the garage door off so that it closes without getting stuck shut. Finally, it's time to mount the actually header unit and support bar. Wait, another problem. Where the header unit has to go, there isn't a horizontal stud, and there really isn't a good place to mount it either. So, we have to fabricate it. Header unit installed, and lift assembly installed on the door. But it's all crooked, the door not the header unit. So, we have to separate everything, fix the tracks, fix the door, reassemble the bottom of the garage door, sand down part of the garage floor where it meets the garage door, and reassemble everything back into place. After that though, the job went pretty smooth. What a ridiculous and unnecessarily difficult project.

In other news, I met and stopped seeing a girl. She was a lot of fun to talk to, but the romantic spark wasn't there. I've still got the other girl but she's a bit of a handful to manage. Yes, I did just say, I'm having a hard time managing a woman. But what I tried to imply, was that getting the relationship to work, requires a lot of work.

Today I got up early(ish) and went to the college and took the math placement test. I scored well enough to get into Calc I and I plan on taking that class in the fall, despite being on the waiting list currently, and school starting in about one week. As for my fall schedule, it's going to be about 15 credits, with me taking a computer science course, two math (trig and calc), a computer information systems course and if I'm lucky, I'll get into this digital photography course.

Today's song of the day: Taking Back Sunday - Falling for you.

Cry some moreeee! - TF2 Heavy

Got up at a reasonable time today, and with my sister Kelly in tow, went to Ft. Collins. We visited Sephora as planned, and I ventured over to Ultimate Electronics to check out what they had.  I'm saddened by the fact that the 3D TV's weren't really all they were cracked up to be. I guess it just confirms the cynic in me was right; 3D is just a fad.

Also, while I was exploring the Ultimate Electronics store, I re-discovered just how awesome the Bose Companion 3 computer speaker systems are. The problem? They cost $250. It's hard to justify that price tag, unless all your music was 192kb/s quality. This includes having to subscribe to Pandora One which does stream at that required rate. If you're streaming at only 128kb/s you don't fully utilize the audio system, which is the whole reason I would purchase it. Maybe I can get both for christmas. Pandora One for a year, and the speakers.Unlikely, but one can hope.


Tonight, I was SUPPOSED to have a date with the first girl, and she postponed because of some family/veteran issue. Normally I would totally understand, but because she's been off the grid for the past few days, I can't help but be naturally biased in thinking that her excuse is bs. I'm trying to be an optimistic person, and failing. Ah well. Tomorrow I'll know enough to see if it's worth staying around, or if I'm done with her.

Instead of the date, I went and helped my father prepare Kelly's garage for the project that we're doing tomorrow. I'll write more about it with my next blog, but I must say that I think I'm going to get the asbestos sickness. I couldn't breath for a long while, and even a few hours after the work, when I blow my nose it's cancer colored.

Have a good night peeps.

Tonight's post song support:  Reliant K - I must have done something right

You wanna call down the thunder?

So today just FLEW by. I attribute this to the fact that I stayed up talking to somebody new until 0430. Was it a good idea? Probably not. Did I enjoy it? Absolutely.

I finished the final episode of Nip/Tuck recently. I've gotta say, I think I only watched that show because it was so bad, it was good. There were a few times that I was yelling at my screen (I watch it using netflix on my computer) and screaming about how absolutely retarded all these people were. All in all, still gave it three stars.

I have been learning more about grilling and thus far, I'm not a pro, but I'm becoming relatively constant at not burning it or having it come out like crap. I kind of want to learn about marinades and cooking chicken to perfection, which I'm fairly certain is impossible unless you're baking. Grilling? Impossible.

Last Christmas, my sister Kelly, bought me a Sephora mens scent package. It's basically 12 of Sephora's most popular colognes in sample sizes and you choose which one you like the best, and redeem it for a full size bottle at no charge. Pretty sweet right? Well, not if you're indecisive like me. I can't tell which out of nearly five colognes I like best. Eff. They all smell good, and they're all pretty timeless. Hrm. I realize this topic is virtually a large waste of time, but it's my life, and maybe that is somehow an accurate representation of my current status. No, I'm not searching for compliments, but I am on the cusp of new things, but not quite there.

Tomorrow is a trip to Ft. Collins, or FoCo as everybody here calls it. Then a date with a girl who I'm losing interest in quickly because she doesn't understand how to reciprocate affection. Who knows. The good news is, I'm not investing too much into it, so no hard feelings if it falls apart.

Have a good week folks.

Verizon 4G LTE? What exactly does that mean?

I've been playing a newly released game recently called Starcraft 2. It's really a fun game. The entire game is visually stimulating. The campaign is addictive, and the multi-player is always a challenge.

There are custom game modes and when playing with friends, it's straight up amazing.

So, that's where most of my day has dissolved to. :X

More to come tomorrow. Hopefully.

It only takes $500 to put hotels on both Baltic and Mediterranean Ave.

I really enjoy the 'fruits' of getting up early for the farmers market.  Ugh, that pun was disgusting. Seriously though, I did enjoy the farmers market this morning. Fresh bread, and fruit accompanied me back home. I'm a sucker for really good bread, so of course I came home with two loaves, one of jalapeno cheddar and one sourdough. I purchased cherries as well simply because this is one of the last weeks that good cherries can still be found.

Not going to lie to you random reader(s) I'm frustrated. Intellectually frustrated. But that hardly defines the situation. I simply have no idea what I want to do for a future career. I've been raised with computers and technology at the forefront of interest, and yet I still know surprisingly little of the computer world. In the Air Force, I worked on long-haul telecommunications that utilized satellites to support communication globally. After three years of that, I transitioned into metropolitan and campus sized computer networks. I enjoyed that to a certain extent, but never getting to control the parts of the job that were important to me, was frustrating. I think it turned me off to the whole experience.

Now, I'm living with the parents for free rent, and will soon reap the benefits of the G.I. Bill to pay for continuous schooling. The problem? They need a declared major, and won't pay for classes that don't count towards that defined major. So, even if college is the place to take a smattering of courses to figure out what excites you, I can't take part in that unless it's over the full time status. Great. So it's like a form of deterrence if you want to explore what you want to do. For now, I'm dual majoring in computer science and math. Why? Because they're the degrees in demand for IT related positions. I'm getting a dual degree in areas of study I'm not even sure I want to continue on in.

Part of me feels as though I'm merely repeating my past mistakes. I got into computers because my brother, Keeton who is two years older than me liked them. Now, I feel like I'm majoring in math because I feel pressure from my father to do so. Oh, and I got a job as a MATH tutor.

Nothing like diving head first into a pool of uncertainty.

I need to stop venting.

Musical inspiration: Yule shoot your eye out by Fall Out Boy on Take this to your grave.

Yay for Saturday!

Lewis Terman's famous study of intellectually gifted children is an example of which type of research design?

Hey again.

Kelly's birthday celebration was pretty fun. We went from Uncle Charlies Bar to Old Chicago. Now, I'm not some stuck up savant when it comes to service and in most cases, I just assume that if a waitress is slow to respond to the table's needs that maybe she's just busy. However, this was not the case at Uncle Charlies. Judas Priest... the place was near empty and she had two large tables to wait on including our table. If she's waiting on two large tables by herself, then she must not be new right? So then why did she take -no exaggeration here- 15 minutes at the cash register to give us bills. I'm not even talking about processing the payments, but just creating the different tickets. Furthermore, once it was down to just our table of 6, she wasn't very responsive. I despise lousy service.

Onward to Old Chicago. Had a pretty fun time there, watched people get toasty and vent about work. I suppose I should have mentioned that everyone who came out was from the hospital that Kelly works at. There were several moments in the night where I had no idea what they were referring to, or who they were referring to. I did learn however, what a "geezer-squeezer" is and how a splash guard works during an ear irrigation. Not quite groundbreaking, but the conversation was comical through most of the night. Kelly is slightly hung-over so, I would say the night was a success.

A couple of posts ago, I referred to "statistically significant" as something of importance. I am a man of facts, of logic, and of concepts. So when I make reference to "statistically significant", I'm usually talking about a set of empirical values, that has an outlier.. In my mind it's a way of identifying a problem or anomaly without getting to technical about it. So, when I referred to the culture shock from Colorado Springs to Cheyenne as such, I just meant that it's requiring more from me than expected to adapt to this city.

As with any city, Cheyenne is not without it's pros and cons. More single women, less stores. More free space, less pragmatic people. What can ya do?

Today's song choice is Moby's "Why does my heart feel so bad?" It's a bit of an oldie but always a goody.

Enjoy your day!

Quartet: Stringed, not vocal.

It's Kelly's Birthday today. So we're going out tonight, and I'm slotted to leave in all of ten minutes. It's unlikely I'll leave on time. Regardless, I have to cut this one short, and I'll post the details of the shenanigans had tonight, tomorrow.

A few things I wanted to address tonight, but can't fully summarize are:

Freedom of the press. I just argued that if a news worthy event happens, it should be written about, even if 99% of the the details aren't known, just letting people know the event happened is a responsibility of the press, and a right of the public. e. g.. A Union Pacific train derailed in Cheyenne, WY. REPORT THAT. Even if you don't know how many people were injured/died, at least report that the train derailed. Don't wait for all the details before publishing, just post the minimal facts.

Video games:. Some really do help build social skills, and could even be linked to an increase in responsibility. Especially competitive or "league" play tournaments.

Dinner tonight consisted of scrambled eggs, and cheesy rice with broccoli. I think I want to eat that same meal, but for breakfast, and not for dinner. Either way, delicious.

Finally, I hope everybody is getting tan this summer, but is also aware of the risks of skin cancer. Even the young bloods, you may be cancer free right now, but in the future, your risk of skin cancer increases based on how many times you've tanned or burned in your youth. So consider it an investment in your future, and protect yourself from getting burned.


Have a good night folks!

What is the forumla for the area of a circle?

I'm motivated enough to start blogging again. I used to utilize Xanga, then LiveJournal, and now after a good long break, BLOGGER!

Recently -I use this term loosely- I moved from Colorado Springs, CO, to Cheyenne, WY. Not a startling distance, but the culture shock is still significant. In fact, I'd say it was statistically significant. More on that later.

I'm a creature of habit stuck in a town that doesn't cater to the limited things that I used to like to do. I'm not using this blog as a way to complain, but just as an attempt to explain my view of life, specifically my life.

I'm 25. It's August 4/5th 2010. And man, it's not where I expected to be, but I'm still making the best of it. I met somebody. Contrary to previous personal preference, I'll talk about all the girls I meet, not just the ones who change my life. Thus far in Cheyenne, meeting women isn't a problem, meeting them twice however seems to be the unconquerable feat. I've gotten several numbers, and given my number out to a few, all to have them not call, or not answer when I call. What gives? If I don't like somebody and they're trying to get my number, I just tell them that they aren't my type. The end. (Usually :x)

However, I did meet a girl lately, and sure enough we've been on a couple of dates. Her and I have a shared disparity for the common sports inclined chap. Our styles of humor differ, but in such a way that we can borrow and build on each others' wit.

As I'm typing this stuff out I'm listening to DragonForce. Normally I don't get into bands whose main premise is speed-rock, but I'll be damned if they aren't distinctively addictive. If you get the chance, check them out. Specifically their Sonic Firestorm and Inhuman Rampage Albums.

That's enough for now. ZIIIIIIPPP COOORRRDDDDD

No, I don't know where that name came up from.

Cheers.